neutral, for once

and by the time i recognize this moment
this moment will be gone . . .
[john mayer, "clarity"]

i wonder why strikingly white interiors are so adored throughout the design & style world. i wonder if it's because all of us have so much clutter and chaos in our lives that a clear background is overwhelmingly appealing. personally i'm not usually a fan of neutrality, in decor or in life. but the photos of this home got a huge sigh of i waaaaaaaant out of me this week.

today i'm yearning for simplicity. less thinking. less processing. less energy being poured into the complicated web of those few relationships in all of our lives that are so difficult. why? why are some things so hard? (i realize i sound like a child right now.) is it the most ignoble of things to wish for a day that life was, for lack of a better word, easy? or if not easy, than easier?

don't worry, i haven't lost my head. i know it's the rough spots in life that yield the most growth. it's just that it's late thursday afternoon, it's been a hell of a past three days, and i'm wishing growth didn't require such trying circumstances. but where's the reward in breezing through? where's the depth and bravery in skimming across life?

broken down, we're all so broken down
bandages on our wings
i know i don't have to tell you
only broken hearts can sing
[over the rhine, "professional daydreamer"]

give me that sunny day, that easy smile
that sadness thrown off for awhile
give me that best friend on a plane
a deep sleep to keep me sane

give me that big love, that hand in mine
that last word, our lost time
give me the whole world, that silver key
an unlocked door --- a you,
a me.

[she]

images from here
found first here