nothing much to say today, except that it's monday again and i really wish it was still the weekend. i had a very unsettling dream last night in which one of my greatest fears came true. i'm a person who rarely remembers her dreams at all once my eyes are open, but i can still see vivid details of this one and it's been unpleasant to say the least.
i'm struck by how much of life is a fight for peace, if not with the circumstances around us, then with ourselves. maybe if i hadn't spent so much time obsessively turning this fear over in my head these past few months, i wouldn't have dreamt about it. i don't know. but my fight now is with myself --- a fight to constructively allow, but constructively control, my thoughts. easy to want to do, so hard to carry out. i'm beginning to think that instead of sitting there trying to think about how i can control my thoughts, the better method is going to be getting out and spending time doing things with people (including myself) that encourage me. to stop thinking sometimes. i'll let you know how it goes.
i had a great saturday, though. i slept in. i did laundry. i opened the windows. i watched a few episodes of Alias (season 3 --- i hate Lauren Reed). i made myself a hearty breakfast scrambler for lunch. i went to a nearby forest preserve with an older couple that have become some of my closest friends over the past 2 years and their border collie. my conclusion after this outing: physical exertion and direct sunlight may be 2 of the best therapists ever --- and they're free.
this week holds a family gathering, dinner with some friends, and some other nice things. despite it all, life carries on. i think about the past, i hope for the future, i sigh in the present. i put one foot in front of the other. what else can we really do but remember, hope, and be?
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3 comments:
hi lady
haven't commented in awhile. i'm here to say, i'm still here! the weekend sounds good. any time spent with a border collie outside is sure to be good ;). i agree with sun and exercise being good therapy - definitely two of my favourite things to partake in, in order to boost my spirits! thinking of you!
j
oh She....I too, suffer from a runaway, non stop over active mind....
I always wonder what folks who don't have that problem, "do"......
have found yoga ( the slow, gentle kind, like Kripalu style) to also be a great salve for that.....it has helped A LOT!....
dont know if its your thing, but might be worth a go!
hello love,
I just wanted you to know that coming here today (the very first day I've been on my computer for "non-business"), reading your word and just sitting in the quite you create has given me a sense of normalcy and calm that I've been severely lacking. You have so many talents and gifts that sometimes it rather floors me, and I just raise my hands in thanks that we see each other.
xox
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