{ pour faire }

there's so much swirling through my mental geography these days that i finally sat down this morning to make a harried list. i think it's pure craziness that i think i can avoid life by refusing to tangibly acknowledge it. so these thoughts dominate my waking moments, but if i don't give them "real" voice by writing them down, somehow they can't reach me? ridiculous. but to my credit, i've faced many difficult things for endless days over the past 4 years. sometimes i just need a little bit of denial.

in any case, i was looking for something this morning and was literally stumbling into/over piles of mail, unread magazine issues, clean laundry, and clusters of mismatched shoes. i realized (after almost wiping out face first into a closet door) i had to start facing some of the more manageable projects in my life. so i made a free-form, non-organized, stream-of-consciousness list. after looking over it just now a couple hours later, its contents were so random i just have to share. we could use some lighter fare around here :) so without further ado, here's my official to-do list, completely unabridged and uncensored:

• back up files on laptop
• mac?
• fix brakes?
  
  
• Wilkie Collins woman in white
  
  
• wash rugs
  
  
• jennifer
  
  
• lake geneva? aug
  
  
• dad's bday
• letters
  
  
• NARS
  
  
• az?
• seattle?
• dc?
  
  
• egg salad

. . . wtf? this just goes to show you that i'm seriously going mad. now excuse me, i've been wanting to buy japanese washi tape for ages and i do believe the time has come.

she