you carry in one pocket the glory of having survived monday,
and in the other the drudgery of being that which precedes wednesday.
(monday is the first day, and therefore the worst day,
but wednesday is a worst all its own.)
tuesday, 2, thursday, 4,
pleasant in their even-ness.
here's a question: if i am on the PHONE,
and you come into my office and i am on
the PHONE,
WHY, OH WHY
do you find it appropriate or helpful
to STAND AND STARE at me,
or even better,
START TALKING TO ME
as if i wasn't ALREADY in a conversation?
NOTHING makes me angrier
than someone who clearly observes that i'm
DOING SOMETHING ELSE
and then WILLFULLY CHOOSES to interrupt.
nothing I AM DOING could possibly be
as important as what YOU WANT.
exception: if someone is in respiratory distress,
and mine is the only phone that could possibly dial 911,
and mine is the only mouth that could possibly speak,
and mine are the only fingers that could possibly hold the receiver,
please, please interrupt.
all other NON-LIFE THREATENING ISSUES
can and WILL WAIT until i'm done
with my freakin' phone call!!!
i'm trying to be peaceful today, but the constant interruptions and de-valuing of my time and my priorities are proving formidable obstacles to my zenned-out approach. i realize i'm the lowliest person on the scene, but i'm also the person without whom this establishment WOULD NOT FUNCTION. PERIOD. when i have days off, things fall apart unless i'm able to spend 3 hours writing out meticulous notes before i leave. when i am gone, they feel it. so why don't they treat me with more respect when i'm here?
Classic TakeLowlySecretaryForGranted Situation.
i know they don't want me to make them sorry.
so i won't, because i'm going to rise above.
but every once in awhile, the fact that i seem to be
{INVISIBLE and also TOO VISIBLE}
makes me want to take this phone cord and wrap it around my neck.
i am ruining the sweet even-ness of tuesday.
i'm sorry tuesday, you already have such a heavy load to bear. you don't deserve my work angst on top of it all, and besides, you don't have any more pockets. so i will take the turbulent waters of my soul and channel them elsewhere. i will influence the current of this day with happy thoughts, light melodies, and prayer until the high waves are swallowed in the stillness of a larger body of water. the heights and valleys of my inner life will be absorbed by something more powerful than myself. the mountains shall be made low and the rough places plain.
and now, tuesday,
you may drape yourself
with the strong, yet weightless cloak
of hope.
8 comments:
yea! You're back!
um, there is nothing yea about this post.
oh dear she.
my how we are so ever-quick to talk ourselves out of bad moods and make apologies for how we feel.
i wish for you today a glass bubble, strong and opqaque...and probably pink. yes, most def pink. also, it smells like jasmine and clove.
also, inside the bubble is a velvet green couch. it's plush with comfortable love, heavy laden with books and magazines, full of the three we, and wrought with laughter and affection.
My wiki research shows that you seem to be more a Wednesday type..
Tīwesdæg: The day of Tyr, the god of war and the son of Wōdanaz. His hand was bitten off by the Fenrir the wolf who according to legend is bound by a magical ribbon made by the dwarves until the day of Ragnarok.
Wodnesdæg: Is the day of Wōdanaz, who is associated with poetic or mantic qualities, his name being connected with the concept of *wōþuz, "furor poeticus" (poetic fury), and is thus the god of poets and seers
--Respectively--
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tyr
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Wodanaz
lindsay: yes, i am back! crazy, but back.
mme: i love how we give each other pictures of wellness, comfort, and kinship to soothe the jagged edges inside. thank you for this one. i feel like i'm floating over the desolate landscape, safe, but still observing all (ie not shielded from everything, but shielded nonetheless).
"full of the three we"
the sweetest fullness indeed.
catholicbeer: well, crap. i AM somewhat of a "Wednesday girl." i don't know how to describe how upsetting / fascinating this is. what made you turn to wikipedia after reading this entry? i'm interested...unless, of course, the true genius never reveals his methods :)
I was wondering where the word Monday Tuesday and Wednesday came from... so I flipped open my favorite etymological web resource, www.etymonline.com and looked up Tuesday... then I got sidetracked into Proto-Germanic mythology and lore... I am so gonna read up on that more later...
I can relate all to well. I am taking out an additional 30k in loans for grad school to avoid being invisible behind the dreaded admin desk
"when i am gone, they feel it. so why don't they treat me with more respect when i'm here?"
For the record: Every single day you are over there in Chicago, away from me here, I feel it. I really do.
Catholicbeer: Thanks to your quick rundown on Tuesday and Wednesday, I shall officially be calling this girl MY GIRL WEDNESDAY...of poetic fury.
Saint: the genius speaks! keep us updated on your future findings. if you can make me appreciate the origin of Wednesday, you deserve a Nobel Prize.
sarah: thanks for the commiseration!
plumeinmypocket: there's a plume-shaped space in my pockets (every pair of pants i wear, in fact) meant for you. one of these days i'm going to shrink you (really though, how could you be smaller) and really keep you in there. be prepared!
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