{ after my 4:12pm lunch "break" }

trying to visit this space more often, even if i don't have anything amazing to say.
HOWEVER.
i just had the most amazing lunch. i made it myself. each night i stand at my kitchen counter and hand-shred spinach into a container. then i mix in quinoa, chickpeas, whatever roasted vegetables i pre-made that week, and whatever protein i have on hand. if i'm feeling indulgent i put an avocado on top. then i sprinkle all the goodness with salt, black pepper, and lemon juice. i look forward to eating this lunch every day.

this morning i had enough time to make myself a smoothie, too. i bought one of those stupid nutri-whatevers last year and i've just started using it regularly. (it is a pretty fantastic contraption.) i think i'm going to start having smoothies in the late afternoon (when the urge to rummage for cookies hits) to tide me over until dinner and maybe even fill me up enough so i can eat smaller dinners. today's combination: 1 banana, 1 cup unsweetened vanilla almond milk, 1 tsp cocoa powder, 1 scoop chocolate protein powder, 1 tsp chia seeds, 4 ice cubes. i'm also looking forward to this in a couple hours. it will serve me particularly well on days like this when i'm at the office until 8pm but don't want to bring 2 full meals, and don't want to eat a full dinner when i get home at 9pm.

all the minute things about my life nobody really cares about.
in part i think and write about them so much because my habits are so different from how they used to be. i never would have dreamed i'd eat as much spinach as i do. brussels sprouts? forget about it. and protein powder? just stop. now it's my new normal.

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i went to bed at 9:23pm last night. i was tempted to stay up and watch the oscars, but then i realized i didn't care.

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i dread tuesdays more than i dread mondays.

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i seem aloof
but i am too sensitive for my own good