monday, monday . . .

good AFTERNOON (on a Monday, having made it to the afternoon is an accomplishment after all) world! i've flipped my Andy Warhol shoe calendar (thank you Colleen --- it's hanging in my office!) to the month of June Juin Juni. my bulletin board is plastered with summery home layouts from RealSimple. the phone lists on said bulletin board come in shades of deep lavender, vibrant melon, fresh green, and cheerful yellow. through the window of my waiting room, across the stairwell, and out the window on the west side of the building i can see the top of a tree dancing in the wind.

i just finished my first water bottle of the day. i avoided the chance to have soda this morning, though i splurged yesterday at lunch and had 2 glasses of Dr. Pepper after not having had soda for over a week. i've decided not to beat myself up about it - i'd rather gulp down a glass of the good Dr. with a smile than deprive myself completely of all the things i love that are horrible for me. please don't think less of me.

the 200 clinical lab requisitions i ordered last week have finally come in. i've written 6 emails in the last hour and plan to write at least one more before 1 o' clock. i've had 3 phone calls. i've made none. i'm wearing my bracelet from Tiffany's today. my nail polish is chipping off and i've finally given up being annoyed about it. nail polish is supposed to chip off, and besides, it makes me feel young and carefree.

does blood waste have to go in red bags, or are we still within regulation if we put it in an orange bag? these are the things that i investigate. some days my life here seems so inane, and others i don't mind.

i had a very pleasant weekend - did many different things, did everything i wanted to and some things i didn't want to. had dinner with one of my oldest friends on Friday and i will always marvel at the fact that she and i have the lowest-maintenance female friendship i'll ever experience. it's an immense blessing to me after having had quite a horrible experience with another friend last year. Saturday consisted of sleeping in and a girly afternoon with Lindsay! she braved my pattern-and-color-crazy apartment like a champion, we had juiceboxes, and then we went shopping. of course i made a few frivolous purchases and she made a few sensible ones . . . and i realized just how fancy-free i'm able to be as a single person. not that marriage is a prison, but it's just different in ways i don't always think about.

Sunday i led the worship service since JW was away, and i'll tell you i hate doing this. mostly because it takes so much EFFORT for me, while it comes naturally to him, and by the end of it i'm as good as dead. however, it all went well, it's over, and he's back. our "reunion" consisted of hanging out with 2 other couples, good friends of ours. tonight and tomorrow he has meetings, so i'm shaping up the week to my own liking! tonight is dinner and a movie with my friend Charity. tomorrow . . . the sky's the limit.

back to paper and thumbtacks and hospital policy. back to this damn black phone and privacy laws. back to schedules and appointments. back to this business-like life i somehow maintain, daydreaming ever and all the while.





kjk.