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i'm feeling quite introspective these days...the tide of my college days is washing over me. back then i'd spend hours in the library studying, lost in a world of music and the pages of books, engrossed in my notes and drawings, each new line putting distance between the things i couldn't change and the limitless possibility i felt was within me. i was often sad, but i was so strong...my experiences fueled my writing in a way i haven't experienced since.
there have been times in my life i've felt reminiscent of those days, but never moreso than now. in many ways i feel trapped, left behind, and forgotten. but somehow this compels me to prove --- mostly to myself --- that i can make it through, that all of this means something, and that i will wait as long as it takes for things to turn around, for the sun to shine on me again.
i've been spending a lot of time in silence alone. i believe this is the true core of my introversion making itself known...when the meteor crashes down, i hunker down in the crater and process my way through the rubble and the emptiness on my own. i'll reach out to a few trusted survivors, but the bulk of the work is done in solitude. although i often doubt myself, i trust myself (i don't know if that's possible to explain or understand, it just is). although i sometimes loathe myself, i know i love myself best in the end.
the two items in this photo are things i'm keeping in my survival crater right now...i tend to cling to certain objects during certain seasons. they are beautiful, sentimental, and...simple. as small as they are, they anchor me. so i'm keeping them close.
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