{ sometimes you have to. }

palaces & pyramids wedges || anthropologie

i'm pretty sure that before i saw these in the newly-compiled semi-annual clearance selection over at anthropologie, i'd put myself on a shoe ban. i actually had this thought yesterday: i think i have all the shoes i could ever want. can you even believe it?! but i've been picking up some great bargains here and there lately with the change of season...suede pumps from urban outfitters that finally went on sale, adorable missoni-like flats from old navy for $4...you know, bargain queen finds like that. (and i (finally) put my tentative trust in the $5.24 pair of dr. scholl's heel inserts and GOOD GRACIOUS do they make a magnificent world of difference! i was stomping joyously through my house the other afternoon in now-excellently-fitting heels upon this discovery.)

while i wouldn't say these are the dirt-cheap bargain that i'm used to pulling the trigger on, i can say i was intrigued and thrilled immediately upon seeing them and after about an hour of hemming and hawing, i took the safety off my wallet and pulled its shiny trigger.

and now these fantastically wild-hearted cut-out wedges are mine.
i can't wait to prance all over this bland suburban town in them.
the j.jill army won't know what to do!

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i will also say this:
sometimes you get news at inopportune times that knocks the wind out of you, even if you knew you'd get it eventually. there are some things you just can't be ready for, no matter how inevitable they always were. in some ways i think that's something beautiful about life; in a world where we can plan and prepare for just about any experience down to the most minute detail, i think it's a good thing that there are things that can still catch us off guard, whether with their beauty or brutality. i never want to be so removed from life that i can't still feel its gentlest breeze or its sharpest needlepoint rain on my face.

even so, there are those things. and while even the most kick ass pair of shoes doesn't change my circumstances, sometimes you've just got to load that silver bullet filled with feathers, take aim, and fire.

and that's a bunch of nonsense, but it makes complete sense to me and my upside-down world right now.

from the other side of gravity ---
she